Man jadda wajjada.

Its a major correction Dr....and I said "what?!!"

I have never really be  a very defensive person, but when it comes to dealing with this particular individual, my 'armour' is all set and ready, somehow? This is really bad. I really don't want living my life thinking that he is always out to get me. That he is an opportunist, that the very moment I let my guard down, he will be right there and then, ever ready to take me down., So, NO. I want to always to think the very best of others, this is who I am. This is how I define myself. Therefore, I pray, if he is doing this out of malice, then let Allah punish him, and if it sincerely because of his kind heart/self,  then may Allah reward him.

But I am only human.

So I tell myself,

"lahaulawala kuwatailla billa ali ilazim" , "man jadda wajjada" ...

 Usaha, doa, dan bertawakallah...

Ya Allah, tenangkan lah hati ini, sesungguhku aku redha bahawa setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Ameen. 

To cook or NOT to cook...that is the question.

Its 5pm, and I still have no idea what to cook for dinner today. hahah crazy, but believe it or not, thinking of what to cook for dinner can also stresses me out! Let me guess what your husband will say when you asked him, "what do you want to eat tonight sayang?"...and he'll say " makan yang simple simple saja dah le"....arghhh...if only there is such a lauk called "yang simple simple saje" our problem would have been solved!!

I love you sayang...but sometimes....you are not helping ok! *muuuahhhs* heheh

Nothing....everything......

oh dear...when I decided to have a blog of my own, it was simply out of jealousy! A friend who used to work with me (she moved btw), was telling me how she enjoys writing about her 'adventures' reinventing her house and making use her newly bought sewing machine. Hahaha I am such an idiot sometimes. Always trying to prove to myself that 'if anybody can, I can too'. How hard can it be right? Blogging, is just a simple narrations of what you have been doing and how 'fun' the experiences was. Silly me. Writing something that is worth reading is no 'kacang putih' at all ya.

Well...thats not really true actually, I do have loads to talk about which I truly believe worth sharing, but itu lah 'masa itu sangat mencemburui ku" ahaks...I am so busy doing.... nothing....everything... hmm how can I explain myself ya...I supposed all the working married women with 3 young children out there would understand what I am talking about....we are so busy doing... nothing...everything...because it seems as if we have done 1001 jobs that day..but the only real 'achievement' that we can recall are seeing our children cleaned, well fed, happy and our husband's smiling face....so is that nothing or everything? Please.. do tell.